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What
Divorce Does To a - Ed.
Recuperating from this kind of lifestyle change is difficult at any age—emotionally, physically and financially—but it is especially difficult when you're past 50. At this point, I am trying to understand and comprehend that this is now my life and I can do anything I want (if only I knew what it was). Increasingly, I am learning to think of my own needs, which is exciting and wonderfully energizing. I am growing and changing dramatically, learning finally to like myself as I am and what a feeling that is! I had to leave to grow up in so many ways. I even enjoy the pain of sadness, regrets, anger, bitterness, self-pity, since I recognize it as an essential part of growing up. Sometimes I sit in wonder at the courage and reckless sense of adventure it took for me to actually do what I had contemplated for so long. I hope to be like a phoenix and rise again. |